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I would like to think that i am an architect. That i was always born to be one. In my career and in life. And just like in my career and in life, i devote entirely to the task at hand. It’s everything or nothing. There is no in-between, I cannot and will not accept in-betweens. The casualties will be great if it were any other way.
Struggle is the wrinkle of life. We can not escape it, but we can honor it, see it as part of us, as our counterpart and coexist. Peace is acceptance of struggle. How do we create peace? We don’t create more struggle, we acknowledge we will struggle. How do we not make more struggle? We listen. We listen to the quiet voice, we tune out the loud one, we grab the knife and crawl out the door. We patch up the wound and devote to our recovery as exhausting and painful as it may be.
Healing can be scientifically explained as the phenomena that restores balance and in addition make things stronger than before. How do I know I will be stronger than before? Because life is a series of imprisonments that deliver us to our next liberation. Experience and practice is our liberator. If we choose to learn from our experiences of struggle and only listen for the quiet voice, the duration of our imprisonments shorten and our liberation lengthens.
I was not free till this moment. I’m was in a one man knife fight. I was still deciding and yet trying. As I struggled with struggle, I knew I could make the easy decision or I could make the decision that will challenge me, that will help me grow. The choice to follow the voice of our spirit takes effort, determination and tenacity. It is easy to be defeated, to be a coward and listen to our mind. Honoring our spirit takes time, patience, faith and trust.
Struggle is indestructible and inevitable. Our response to it dictates our quality of life. The bouts of suffering will lessen as we learn how to win the battle, how swiftly to grab the knife, unlock the bars and walk through the gates to peace as we hold hands with struggle. So i wished to be free and i have started walking down that path. “Do I try harder or do I walk away?” is a common question everyone has. But when walking away is hardest, than do that for that will make you the most strongest.
Cheers.
ps: I am Archtomato, and I am an architect.